I'm not sure why I've been doing this but I've been going around telling myself and anyone that asks that... "My surgery date is the 22nd of Oct but they will probably push it back till November, maybe even December..."
No Natasha they are not pushing it back, it is most definitely happening on the 22nd! I don't know why I've been telling myself that because I don't think that was ever mentioned to me, I've just made it up to get my little scardey cat brain through the weeks as October gets closer. And now look what's happened stupid brain, you have created a false sense of security and now I'm panicking.
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| Post double jaw surgery appointment! |
I have all these appointments booked in, including post op, which is both exciting and terrifying. I cried a bit last night, had a bit of a flap and a panic about the whole thing. I'm just scared, scared of it all, scared it will hurt, scared of the hospital, scared of what the results will be like and I'm scared that the results wont be good enough. What if I go through all this and then I still get called names when I walk down the street? Then what do I do, I've always had this surgery as an option to stop all that, but what if it doesn't? I don't have another option, that's it.
I'm scared and nervous, but I'm excited too. I'm excited that this will all be over soon and there is an end in sight.
I don't think the fact that my teeth are causing me so much pain right now is helping my positive thoughts shine through. I had my top wire changed to a big thick strong one and it is soooo painful right now. It's all I can think about, even just my lips touching my teeth as the rest naturally is sore let alone eating anything. Brushing my teeth this morning was near impossible, just waterpiked and mouth washed.
On a more positive note, I am finally getting myself sorted in my new house, had a few problems with the electrics and a few snags but I'm slowly getting my stuff un packed and put in its new space to live. Pictures will be coming soon Sophie Leigh! And my brother is back from Paris on a visit so I am looking forward to going to my mum and dads tonight to see him, reminds me I must pick up some liquid/mushable food for me to take round to eat!
Congrats to Sophie-Leigh, Johanna, Mary C, Katie and Katie on your brilliant surgery recovery so far and thanks for blogging through it, it really helps!
Much Love xxx
It's normal to be scared! But I can honestly say none of the recovery was too bad, just kind of tedious. I had my surgery a year ago, and I'm 51.
ReplyDeleteBest thing I ever did, I can breathe, chew, close my lips, and my jaw doesn't crack anymore.
The worst part was the steroids, they made me very moody as I came off them.
Now it all seems like a blur, and completely worth it.
Best of luck to you!
Thank you Lou,
DeleteI'm sure that a year from now I will look back and think what was I so scared of?!
I just turned one month post op, and I can tell you it honestly, from the bottom of my heart was not as bad as I thought!
ReplyDeleteYou see all the photos, of everyones day 1 and they look a swollen mess! But honestly, at that point I just had a pretty bad headache which was soon taken away with a few meds.
It's just the fear of waking up and being so unprepared to feel different. The first thing I did when I woke was smile and talk to the nurse and then i slowly touched my chin... I could tell the difference already! I then sighed with relief and lay back down.
It's so so worth it, you'll be fine, I promise :)
I'm so excited for you xxx
Thanks Sophie-Leigh,
DeleteYou're right it is the fear of being different. I'm getting a bit more excited now, sort of :-) xxx
Natasha!! I get more and more excited for you every time you post something. Your life is changing so much all at once and it is amazing! EEEEEK your surgery is so so close! Looking forward to getting to see your recovery :)
ReplyDeleteHey Cassie!
DeleteAwwww thank you lovely, my life is changing! rather a lot actually but its good, and I do feel a bit more excited about it now, not as nervous. I'm sure the fear will come back but for now excitement has taken over! x
How incredibly exciting! It's totally normal to be a bundle of nerves. I think I almost started crying when being wheeled into the operating room. Then I was talking when they woke me up - which I still don't know if I was allowed to do. :) Hang in there!
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